Something just had to give.
I was close to being as irritated as I had ever been in my life.
But I wasn’t certainly quite so sure just why that was. That’s a taxing feeling when you know something is amiss and you can’t figure out what that thing is. I felt like all I was doing was laboring inside the zone controlled Heating, Ventilation, and A/C of the office and then trying to keep up with all the family stuff. It was a routine that I had been good with for a long time. I talked to my wife about all of it one night inside the central air conditioner of the home office after the kids were in bed. She recommended that maybe talking to a professional might be my best bet. So that’s just what I did. Therapy has certainly helped me understand a lot more about how I’m feeling. One of the greatest things that I’m doing now is paying attention to the moment I’m in rather than constantly thinking and planning. This is what I do. I’m typically thinking ahead and don’t pay near enough attention to what is certainly happening. This wasn’t an self-explanatory behavior to break. Bit by bit though, I’m refocusing on now and paying close attention to life as it happens. This alone has certainly helped me feel better about my life. And paying attention even paid off when it came to the Heating, Ventilation, and A/C equipment. I certainly observed a uncommon sound coming from the heat pump and called the Heating, Ventilation, and A/C contractor. Turns out I caught a problem early and saved a big chunk of change because I was paying attention.